” Now and then I think of when we were together. Like when you said you felt so happy you could die…..but you didn’t have to cut me off. Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing….Now you’re just somebody that I used to know.” (Gotye)
No, that isn’t my Christian Grey breakup song. That is the song that seems to be on the radio the exact time I get in my car. Every. Single. Time. And do I seem a bit bothered by it? The answer is yes. Because it reminds both Kelly and I about the boy we used to know and love. And how we somehow lost him, quickly. It will come on the radio, and that moment of silence enters the swagger wagon. Then we will just give a knowing glance to each other and then quickly change it to the Fifty Shades soundtrack. But it lingers-that longing feeling that we aren’t quite sure what to do with so it sits on a shelf. Not the shelf that holds a certain series of books and memorabilia to match. But the personal shelf we carry with us inside that weighs more than a four-book collection. This shelf holds a series of emotion ranging from denial, sadness, depression, and acceptance. So what is this loss Kelly and I have been dealing with you ask? It is the love of a certain “hot” dog… and his name is Jacob Black. Yes, Jakey as we call him, was once the center of our universe and we dropped him quicker than Christian Grey can drop his drawers. But perhaps I need to share in what’s become of my relationship with Jakey. And in doing this, it means to let you in on some personal information. But we are tight, right fellow greysessed girls? So what happens online stays online, right? Good:) So let’s go back to the beginning of the end (or is it?)….
————————————————————————————————From: Jacob Black Subject: hello? Date: March 28, 2012 17:03 To: Michele Hey there, wanted to see how your flight back to Maryland was. It was great seeing you in LaPush and so glad you got to finally see the reservation. My dad loved you and Kelly and says you are welcome back any time! ummm, don’t quite know how to word this but is everything cool with us? You seemed a bit distracted while out here but maybe I am just reading into things too much. Gotta run-Billy needs a ride to Bella’s house. -Jakey __________________________________________________________________________ From: Michele Subject: re:hello? Date: March 31 2012 19:27 To: Jacob Black Hi, sorry for the delayed response. It’s been sort of crazy since I’ve been back from Forks/Seattle. I had a great time seeing you on the rez and finally meeting Billy. Loved hanging with Quil, Embry, and especially Seth. Things are good between us. I’ve just been distracted I guess. I have been reading this book series called, “Fifty Shades of Grey” and its had me up at night while out west. But no worries, we are good my favorite wolf;) xo, Michele _________________________________________________________________________________ From: Jacob Black Subject: Seattle???? Date: March 31 2012 20:02 To: Michele As the heading reads, Seattle?????? you never mentioned Seattle when you came to Forks. Why is that? What’s the deal? Explain please. Does it have to do with these books? I am not feeling like your #1 wolfy right now. -Jake ______________________________________________________________________ From: Michele Subject: Keep your fur on Date: March 31 2012 20:16 To: Jacob Black Like my heading says, KEEP YOUR FUR ON! ←and those are what we say in CG’s world, SHOUTY CAPITALS! You are still my #1 wolfy and Kelly’s too for that matter. nothing to worry about. We just made a little side trip to Seattle. No big deal. If you really must know, we just wanted to see about a certain building. It’s called the Escala and yes it’s from the books. We didn’t realize it actually existed and just wanted to see it in person. So are we good? Please don’t get upset, it’s not like I am getting “obsessive” over these books or anything. Twilight forever babes:) Talk soon, xo Michele _________________________________________________________________________ So that’s a glimpse of how things started. And there is much more to that story. If you are interested in seeing how this all plays out, please let me know and I will continue to share with you the dramatic love triangle that has me torn between furry feet and twitchy palms. Comments welcome, and as always thanks for your support. xo